Friday, July 11, 2008

What A Friend We Have In Jesus

I had a meltdown tonight. Stuff here and there put together made me a bit depressed and a lot anxious that I started crying out of the blue when my husband asked me a question (I can't even recall what his question was ....) What stuff here and there? Like these stuff:

1. It suddenly hit me that my kids are going back to school on July 30th - 2 weeks away! I should be happy that I don't have to worry about what camp I should be taking them when I work, etc, etc. but I think it made me very very sad to think that summer vacation is almost over and we really haven't spent a "fun family vacation" before it's over.

I also was disappointed with myself that I didn't get to do some things I planned to do with the kids... like teach and practice their multiplication table in a fun way during summer, or learn touch typing (which is very important for G, with his dyslexia). N is going to be back in the high performing class this year and for some reason I am second guessing my decision to put her back there. G will be in grade 5 - I do not know who his teacher will be and I am worried. He had a wonderful teacher in grade 4 and I am praying that he will have a similar one in grade 5... but I am not sure. I think this really is giving me a lot of anxiety.

2. It bothers me that I do not know how to communicate my feelings (this anxiety) to my husband well. And so when he asked me what's going on, all I could blurt out is that "I miss my friends in/from the Philippines". It really does not represent the whole picture of things because it really is more than that but it's hard to explain. And I do not want to go in details about my anxieties about my kids because it gets more complicated talking it out with him. I know I have a problem with communication. Huge problem. I don't do it well. I don't express my thoughts well. Not verbally. In writing I could a little bit more (therefore the post, and the blog), but hubby does not like reading this blog. He does not like me blogging. And I don't care about that anymore. I just blog because it helps me sort things out.

3. And then add to this is the fact that I can't used our main computer because it's locking up so I am using this old lap top which is harder because this is way older and slower.

5. Times like this is best handled by bringing all my cares to Jesus. And so this post will serve as my "Then Sings My Soul" post. And here's my song:

What a Friend we have in Jesus,
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry
Ev'rything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit,
O what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
Ev'rything to God in prayer!

Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged:
Take it to the Lord in prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful,
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our ev'ry weakness:
Take it to the Lord in prayer.

Are we weak and heavyladen,
Cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Saviour, still our refuge—
Take it to the Lord in prayer.
Do thy friends despise, forsake thee?
Take it to the Lord in prayer;
In His arms He'll take and shield thee,
Thou wilt find a solace there.

For more songs of worship or comfort ... go to Amy's blog for the "Then Sings My Soul" links.

UPDATE 7-11-12-08: Just want everyone to know that I am doing well this morning (the post above was written last night). Anxieties are way less; stress level is low; depression gone. I am confident that things will work out somehow. "The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases - His mercies never come to an end - they are NEW EVERY MORNING, great is THY faithfulness"... Thank you to all who left comments here - very much appreciated.

Thank you Lord for your work in my life...


Forgetfulone said...

I am so sorry to hear about all of your anxiety coming to a head right now. I'm glad you can give it to God. I have trouble with that. I have such a hard time giving up what I see as "control" which I know is just a desire to control and a lack of trust. I wish I could feel better knowing that Jesus would take my cares away. I hope you're feeling less anxious tomorrow!

Unknown said...

Sending hugs to you and prayers to our Father. Let Him hold you in His warm embrace and give you peace.

Susan said...

Oh I'm so sorry you are going through it...

Bless your heart.

Loved the song, and it is so true, what a FRIEND we have in Jesus!!

He'll always be there and understand what you are going through.


BlondeMomBlog (Jamie) said...

I'm so sorry you are going through some anxiety and stress. Take care of yourself and sit down and pray about your priorities. Hugs!

p.s. school starts back here in a month...I can't believe it

Melissa Lea said...

Beautiful! I love this song! Thanks for sharing!

Mindy said...

I can totally identify with how you feel about communicating with your hubby. I have the same problem, and sometimes even when I do manage to say what I feel he can't really understand it. It truly IS times like these that we have to lean on our Jesus and know that He understands our hearts and loves us.

Liza on Maui said...

Just want everyone to know that I am doing well this morning. Anxieties are way less; stress level is low; depression gone. I am confident that things will work out somehow.

"The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases - His mercies never come to an end - they are NEW EVERY MORNING, great is THY faithfulness"... Thank you to all who left comments here - very much appreciated.

Cheri said...

First (because I'll forget) thank you for stopping by my blog today!

Can I tell you - you are not the only one who gets overwhelmed by life! I learned something in a bible study once:
There is a difference between worries and concerns. Concerns are something you can do something about - and should. Worries are what you can do nothing about. Turn them over to God - and LEAVE THEM THERE!

You don't even need to find the words to tell Him what your worries are - you've already placed Him in your heart and HE knows!

Amy Wyatt said...

Wow...your school starts back even earlier than ours. I am stressing about some of the same things. We haven't even looked at multiplication tables this summer - no time. I'm sorry you are feeling so stressed and overwhelmed, but at least you know who you can carry all your burdens too. I loved the instrumental version of this song. Thanks for sharing it.

Anonymous said...

sorry to hear about your evening and glad to hear you are feeling better.
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A Dusty Frame said...

I'm sorry you were having a rough night.

Sometimes life does get overwhelming, but you're right that taking it to the Lord is the very best thing.
I'm so happy that you're doing better now!

Beverly said...

oh, I remember singing that song in my youth...

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Liza this is one of my favorite songs.
As someone that could be your mom
I understand.
All of these feelings and anxieties
are a part of lifes journey.
But God is so Good. He always comes through
Thank you for the love and encouragement you give me.
Love You

Joyful Days said...

Just wanted you to know that I will keep you in prayer even if you are on the upswing.

You sure balance a lot!!

Keep leaning on HIM.