Saturday, December 2, 2017

No Gifts, No Guilt

Photo is from one of those Facebook Christmas Pages

One of my favorite "Marketing Mentor", Seth Godin, said that his favorite holiday is Thanksgiving because it's a "no gifts, no guilt" holiday.  I perceive it as him saying that Christmas is a holiday where there is so much pressure about gift giving, that it creates guilt when you don't give.  This kind of thinking, in my opinion, is sad, but not uncommon. I myself is guilty of feeling guilty when I couldn't give gifts to the people I'd love to give gifts to, and people who gives me gifts.  People gets stressed on Christmas Season.  While it's supposed to be a holiday filled with love and laughter, it's become a holiday filled with stress, anxiety and guilt.

It is up to us to make our own Christmas celebration right and true to what we think and believe it is about.

Last night I started listening to Christmas music on Youtube while I am folding laundry, and I found myself singing out loud and dancing. It was hilarious. But no one saw and it doesn't matter. I was singing and dancing because I loved it.  It gave me so much joy.  Singing Christmas songs gives me so much joy!

So I think I'd be doing that again tonight. Sing and dance  Christmas.

The gift has already been given. It's the gift of  "John 3:16". The guilt has already been taken away.

In this world where there is so much sadness, sorrows, anxiety and stress,  Christmas is the time of the year when we can pause, and feel peace, love and pure joy.  Not feeling it yet? Sing along with me. Let's start with Moriah Carey's "All I Want For Christmas Is You" That always gets me going.  Just sayin'.

No gifts, no guilt. Just singin' and dancin'.  Bring back the Christmas JOY.

Friday, December 1, 2017

Just Write


Today is Tatay and Nanay's Wedding Anniversary.  Growing up, it's our family tradition to go out on a "nice" dinner as a family to celebrate this special occasion.  After dinner, we go to COD to watch the  Christmas Show.  Dec. 1 is not only an anniversary ... it's also the start of the Christmas celebration with the Estrellas' at 491-D :)  This is the day when we put our Christmas Tree up.  Oh I love reminiscing these fun memories ...

JUST WRITE.   That's my title for this post because I am coaching myself to just write .... write even if sometimes I don't feel like to (which is not really "I don't feel like to" but more of "I think I have other important things to do than write on my online journal" .... Ahhhh, just write. And so I did.


Sunday, November 26, 2017

Because Journaling Is Good For The Soul



Yesterday I discovered that a friend of mine also re-started her blog and writing journal entries of  musings and reflection.  I enjoyed reading her blog because it's written in the same way I write here.  She talked about how she sometimes (or most of the time) overanalyze a situation. I am so the same.  And  journaling via blog helps me in processing my thoughts and dissecting my feelings.  I messaged her telling her that I found her blog. I encouraged her to keep on writing  on her blog  because "writing is good for the soul". ... "journaling is good for the soul".

Yesterday I also discovered a Facebook Page called Button Poetry and it sparked my love for Poetry. I think I might start writing poems again... 

Checked back on the Bucket List I wrote in 2012 and a lot has not been fulfilled. I think I need to be more proactive about fulfilling them.  

With my husband's retirement from his job at the Maui County, we are going through transitions. Praying all will go well, and all will even be better ...

And my book ... oh the book that I am supposed to write.  Nope, not done yet.  I really need to set aside a time to do it.  I also need to let go of  trying to make it a perfect book because it will never be perfect.  I need to remind myself to write according to my writing style.  People follow my blog and social media posting because of my style ... I just have to remain true to my voice and the writing will be easier and I'd be able to finish that book.

a hui hou

Friday, November 24, 2017

Vulnerability, Overshare and Overthinking


The other day I shared about my "stress hive".  Yesterday I talked to my friend/doctor and he told me it's not. He said its a viral thing.  Maybe it is, maybe it's not .... but I stand with my self diagnosis that it is  (i know, Google and I are not doctors, but ;) ).  There are many things I am sorting out in my life and I think that's causing a "stir" in my system.  Anyway, I am glad the hives are gone because it was not fun having it.

So now, let's catch up on where we've left off ....  

Kids Insurance. Answered Prayers.  We figured out what we are going to do and they are covered.

Maui Monopoly. The event was successful.  I was exhausted and my energy was drained after. Then this feeling "I didn't do as much as I should have done" came upon me. I started thinking of the things I could have done better, and I was hard on myself. Then there was also an anxiety felt when I heard of the talk about making it an annual event.  After a couple of days dealing with that anxiety, and I had the courage to express myself and just be honest that fundraising is not my calling.  I was honest. I made myself vulnerable. In the end it worked out fine.

On a more positive note, my son was accepted at the Animation school he applied for and he is going to L.A. in January. We're pretty excited!  I will most likely share more about this on another entry but I just want to mention it here for now.

And one more great news, I found my Bible that I thought I lost.

Now on a different story ...

I shared at the Thanksgiving Eve at church.   It was a "sensitive" topic for me.  I practiced in my head what I was going to say and its all good.  But when I stood up on the stage, there was a phrase that came out of my mouth that should not have ... and after that I was bummed.  Thus my title "Vulnerability, Overshare and Overthinking".   You see, the point of my sharing is to give Thanks to God for being a personal God. It's a testimony of how He is always with us no matter what we go through.  I wanted to share a certain struggle I had 12 years ago that will make that point.  What I am supposed to say was " 12 years ago, a situation happened at church that I felt hurt and insecure. It was a complicated situation and it wasn't intended to hurt me, but I felt hurt".  Well.... on the stage, I simply said "(12 years ago, "name of church" hurt me, emotionally ..." Duh! After the sharing I felt bad. That was an overshare.  Sure I emphasized the fact that God has a plan, that we all make mistakes, nobody is perfect, but still I was bothered by that phrase. It's an old story. I should not have mentioned it. It can be misinterpreted. I started this back and forth dialogue in my head:  "it's ok, let it go - to what can I do - what should I do to make it right? etc. etc."  The thing is, it's done. Probably nobody ever remembered what I said; but what if somebody does, and misinterpret what I meant. Oh well, let go and let God handle this. 

Yesterday we celebrated Thanksgiving with our friends.  We hosted it at home.  On Thanksgiving, we have this "tradition" that at the night of Thanksgiving we would put our Christmas Tree up and decorate it with our friends.  Yesterday I told my husband that I wasn't ready for the Christmas  Tree to be up.  I simply don't want to do the "tradition".  Long story short, we did it anyway, and I am glad we did.  However, it makes me wonder what exactly was my reason why felt like I didn't want to do it.  It's hard to explain.  I can "feel" it on my body ...  in my mind I know why I didn't want to do it, but there are no words to describe why.  I guess I can  "blame" it on the "Introvert Me".  I am still recovering from using all my "social powers" in CT, my social me is depleted.  Friends at "Quiet Revolution"  would understand what I was going through  but my husband who is an extrovert won't.  Maybe I am just missing my daughter and my family in the Philippines and that's my way of  fighting it or indirectly expressing it. I don't know. But our friends are pretty cool so it turned out fine and I am glad that now our Christmas tree is decorated. 

The thing is, now I am feeling kind guilty for making that situation a bit awkward.  Because I that morning I told them I don't want to do it, then in the end I agreed to do it. I felt I had put a "damper" of the situation.  I hate being the "melancholic" one.  I wish I can be this "enthusiastic" and "fun" person instead of this person who other people might be "walking on eggs shells" around.  Oh yes, I am overthinking this too.  It went fine. Liza, stop overanalyzing.

OK. I think this is it for now.   I woke up at 3am today and couldn't go back to sleep so I wrote here. But now I am feeling sleepy, which is a good thing, so I am going back to bed.


Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Happy Hump Wednesday



Yesterday, Tuesday, was a good day.  Many important tasks accomplished. Today, Wednesday, will be great. Will continue to accomplish tasks one at a time and not be stressed by it.

We are still sorting out our health insurance.  Praying for wisdom on what to do.

Maui weather is overcast this morning.  The cat next to me is asking me to pet her .... so now i am typing with one hand.

Maui Monopoly is this weekend. I'd be glad when its over so I can focus on other tasks.

Praying for my young adult kids Gardner and Noelle. Thankful for the fine young people they have become. Praying for a good now and a bright future for them. 

This is going to be a short post, but that's ok.  Wishing everyone a wonderful Wednesday. Aloha!

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Stop Worrying And Start Living


Last night I listed to  Dale Carnegie's Audibook on How To Stop Worrying and Start Living.  It's the best book on anxiety that I have encountered and I highly recommend it.

I will embed the video at the end of this post so you too can listen to it if you want to.

It seems counterproductive that I am blogging here at Liza's Eyeview when I have so many other blogging commitments that I have to fulfill. But this is my therapy of sorts. I think I've said that before.  This is how I sort so many things on my head.

There are many other things that are causing stress in my life (like the fact that we don't have the funds to send out kids to college and it really bums me out) but I'd rather focus on the blessings in my life and what I can do to make things better - one day at a time.

So here's the embedded audio books in case you want to listen to it too: