Hubby was on a 2 week missions trip to the Philippines and that was good. I intentionally did not post much about him being gone because, you know, I am paranoid like that. They (some blog experts) say that do not give info such as hubby being away, etc. Now that he'll be back in a couple of hours then I can talk about it.
So why was it good that he was gone for 2 weeks? Well it became our "truce time" on this "conflict we have about my loss of job and not wanting to go to work full time". It gave me the much needed break to think about this whole thing without pressure.
And yes, I thought about it a lot. But you see, it's like a roller coaster ride. At one point I would feel like, yeah we can make it without me finding another full time job and I should stick to my guns of not wanting to work full time outside of our home. And then at one point I would be like - what if hubby is right? With this present economy, it is scary. Maybe I should be a little bit more practical than idealistic.
And maybe, hubby will (or has already) changed his mind about this thing since he spent 2 weeks on a third world country where a flat screen TV is such a luxury for most it's not even an option of something that could be cut back like what's written on this article. Sometimes the question there is "where do we get our next meal?".
Like what I said, it's a roller coaster ride. At one point I would be confident that "blogging" would be a good source of "work at home" income for me, but then again at the times I would be like "I don't know... maybe I am being a little bit too optimistic on this". As we bloggers know - it's really not that easy to make money off of blogs - it takes hard work. It does pay off well in the end, but getting there is not easy...
Good thing there's blogging for me to spill some of these thoughts out and empty my mind of these worries, so that in turn I can fill it up with these words of wisdom:
"Trust in the Lord with all your hearts and lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path." - Proverbs 3:16