Friday, October 22, 2010

I Know ...

"I know..."  I never knew that the phrase "I know..." can be  such a comforting word. It is to me right now.

Let me explain why and how.

We are currently studying the book of Revelation at church.  A few weeks ago, when it was announced that we will go through the book of Revelation during Sunday Services, I was a bit worried.  Would it be "hard to understand?" "would it be boring?".  None of my worries came true.  In fact it was the opposite.  I love the way Pastor Charles is teaching us through the book of Revelation.  Each Sunday I learn something new or I am reminded of something I had forgotten.  Two weeks ago was "first love".  Last week, it was that phrase "I know....".

I slept early last night.  Just tired.  I lay down next to my daughter on her bed while praying for her, and I fell asleep there.  Then I woke up in the middle of the night (now early morning) and I couldn't go back to sleep.  Too many things on my mind.  Too may decisions to make, too many things I want to discuss with my husband but don't know exactly how we should discuss, too many things going on....

And I was laying on my bed ...  yes, I even moved to my bed (ok, my husband and I's bed) .. and I still couldn't sleep...  just as I was about to start praying about the many concerns I have, I felt (heard) a still small voice in my heart saying " ... I KNOW....".  And of course I teared up.  I know it's the Holy Spirit.  I know it's the Lord.  He knows.  He knows what my concerns are.  He knows what's troubling me.  And just as he told the Church of Smyrna in the book of Revelations that "He knows" ... that He knows of their affections and sufferings .. He also told me He knows what my needs and concerns are.

Revelations 2:9(a) "I know your afflictions and your poverty - yet you are rich! ..."

Revelations 2:10(b) ".... Be faithful, even to the point of death, and I will give you the crown of life".

My poverty is nothing compared to what the church of Smyrna is going through.  It's actually minini if  I put everything in perspective.  I still believe I need some things done, I still will press on accomplishing what I need to accomplish... but it's nice to know that God "knows".  He knows, not in general terms ... but personally - with all the details of my life. He will guide me through.

" ... I know ...".

1 comment:

Charles said...

Blessings to you dear sister!
Pastor Charles
Ps 139