Friday, August 15, 2008

A Million Things To Do

So in my last post I told you about my "A Thousand Things To Blog About". Not really a thousand, but plenty enough to feel like it. Well, I have a confession to make: I also have a "Million Things To Do". Yes, it's not really a million but its plenty enough to feel like it.

I find myself waking up at 4AM everyday even on days that I can sleep in (like in Keanaea). And even if I stay up late at night, which I expect I'll wake up late the next day, I still wake up at 4AM and couldn't go back to sleep no matter how hard I try. I think it's coming from the fact that in my head I know I have a lot of things I need to do or accomplish and so I MUST WAKE UP.

My marriage is doing well but sometimes I feel like I am avoiding discussing with my hubby some important issues (important for me) just because I do not want to rock the boat. Issues are not that serious but important enough - like how we spend our time and how we should watch our schedules so that we can have sufficient family time. This seems to be a sensitive topic to us because I am an introvert and hubby is extrovert. I need lots of quite times and family time (just the 4 of us) while my hubby needs a lot of fellowship and "friends around". I used to think (and sometimes I still do) that my husband is "bored" when it's just me around or it's just "our family" around. And this is just one example of what I do not want to discuss with him because I do not want to rock the boat (our marriage is calm at the moment, I want it to stay that way) or I do not want to be misunderstood as not wanting to spend time with friends because I do, I really do.

Parenting is doing well even though I always wish I can stay home instead of working outside of home. In times I wish I can stay home, I always remind my self of the many blessings I have having a job that I have and earning the income that I do. I have to be happy and content with my current situation and learn to play the card that I am dealt with (learned that from Randy Pausch).

Today is Friday. It's a State Holiday here on Hawaii so kids and hubby are off school and work. I on the other hand will go to work because today is not a holiday at work. That's ok - I really need to go to work and catch up on some of my "pending projects". It's good to go to work when I know that my hubby is with our kids.

Lately I had been having this desire to go back to the Philippines for a visit. I am wishing I can go back with my 2 kids this Christmas season so I can show them what Christmas in the Philippines is like. I also would like them to re-connect with our relatives there especially Tatay, Nanay, Kuya Joseph and his family. I can just imagine how my kids will have a blast spending time with their cousins JM and Josiah. I think this is more of a wishful thinking right now. We do not have the money to make this happen but it's good to think about it.

I also wish we can fly back home to Connecticut to connect with our families there.

So much to do, so little time, so "little funds" :) . But I do not fret. Life is good. Life is very good and I am thankful.

P.S. - I just joined this mass blog event (BLOG ACTION DAY) and we are going to BLOG POVERTY in the hope to make a difference. I am excited about it. Stay tuned.


One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Liza We must be twins but born in a different generation and a different country.
So much of what you write "is me"
Especially the early morning.
My son called from Thailand this morning and remarked "mama why do you get up so early" I replied I need to change a little because when the time changes I will be up at 3:00 and going to bed at 6:00.

Anonymous said...

First time over to your blog. Yes, sometimes unspoken words can slow us down in life. Communication is a big one that a great deal of married couples struggle with.

Love your blog.