So in my last post I told you about my "A Thousand Things To Blog About". Not really a thousand, but plenty enough to feel like it. Well, I have a confession to make: I also have a "Million Things To Do". Yes, it's not really a million but its plenty enough to feel like it.
I find myself waking up at 4AM everyday even on days that I can sleep in (like in Keanaea). And even if I stay up late at night, which I expect I'll wake up late the next day, I still wake up at 4AM and couldn't go back to sleep no matter how hard I try. I think it's coming from the fact that in my head I know I have a lot of things I need to do or accomplish and so I MUST WAKE UP.
My marriage is doing well but sometimes I feel like I am avoiding discussing with my hubby some important issues (important for me) just because I do not want to rock the boat. Issues are not that serious but important enough - like how we spend our time and how we should watch our schedules so that we can have sufficient family time. This seems to be a sensitive topic to us because I am an introvert and hubby is extrovert. I need lots of quite times and family time (just the 4 of us) while my hubby needs a lot of fellowship and "friends around". I used to think (and sometimes I still do) that my husband is "bored" when it's just me around or it's just "our family" around. And this is just one example of what I do not want to discuss with him because I do not want to rock the boat (our marriage is calm at the moment, I want it to stay that way) or I do not want to be misunderstood as not wanting to spend time with friends because I do, I really do.
Parenting is doing well even though I always wish I can stay home instead of working outside of home. In times I wish I can stay home, I always remind my self of the many blessings I have having a job that I have and earning the income that I do. I have to be happy and content with my current situation and learn to play the card that I am dealt with (learned that from Randy Pausch).
Today is Friday. It's a State Holiday here on Hawaii so kids and hubby are off school and work. I on the other hand will go to work because today is not a holiday at work. That's ok - I really need to go to work and catch up on some of my "pending projects". It's good to go to work when I know that my hubby is with our kids.
Lately I had been having this desire to go back to the Philippines for a visit. I am wishing I can go back with my 2 kids this Christmas season so I can show them what Christmas in the Philippines is like. I also would like them to re-connect with our relatives there especially Tatay, Nanay, Kuya Joseph and his family. I can just imagine how my kids will have a blast spending time with their cousins JM and Josiah. I think this is more of a wishful thinking right now. We do not have the money to make this happen but it's good to think about it.
I also wish we can fly back home to Connecticut to connect with our families there.
So much to do, so little time, so "little funds" :) . But I do not fret. Life is good. Life is very good and I am thankful.
P.S. - I just joined this mass blog event (BLOG ACTION DAY) and we are going to BLOG POVERTY in the hope to make a difference. I am excited about it. Stay tuned.