I did this once before. If you've been with me in this blogging journey of mine since the beginning, you'd remember that I once slowed down; I once stepped back. I am doing it again. In the coming months I will be posting less (notice I already removed my Blog 365 button). I will be posting at least twice a month, maybe once week at the most. I will not participate in any blog carnival. This will drastically reduce traffic in my blog but that's ok. Once I sort out what I need to sort out and do the mission that I feel God is calling me to do, I will slowly get back to joining carnivals and the traffic will slowly but surely pick up once again. I am sure.
The midnight prayer I posted the other night came from the pit of my heart. It was triggered by a "bad" argument that my husband and I had that night, when out of the blue, in a bad timing and bad way on my part I blurted out the words "I want to start working part time instead of full time". Those words are not the words my husband wanted to hear in the middle of a little planning or brainstorming session he's trying to have with me about how we are going to spend this little tax return we're going to receive. "bad timing Liza, bad timing..." The conversation (if I can call it a conversation) went downhill from there when my husband dropped a remark "So what are you going to do? blog the whole day?". "Bad remark hubby, bad remark..." As Gary Smalley would say, for my hubby this was a little pebble he threw at me BUT it landed to me like a boulder. In my opinion and observation, the more time I have on my hands to spend with my family, the lesser I blog. Last Saturday my husband and son were on Oahu for a Taekwondo tournament and I planned this date with my daughter that day. My daughter and I had the greatest bonding time. I will post more about this day later but my point is, on Saturday I did not have any urge to blog. After our day's date I could have spend some time blogging while letting her watch a DVD of her choice, but instead, I folded the laundry while watching "Phantom of the Opera" DVD with my daughter, and she enjoyed that. You see, the more I am stressed, the more I blog. I don't think my husband understands that. Anyway, when I prayed that prayer that night, God spoke to me in a still small voice in my heart to run to HIM when I am stressed ... not to blogging, but to HIM. Blogging in itself is not bad, but the best answer to my anxiety is to spend more time with HIM. And so I will.
I will be doing one or two more important posts in the next couple of days, in which I will talk about why I am putting my foot down and "demanding" that I work part time instead of semi-full time (36 hours a week). I feel it's important for me to blog about it so for the sake of other "working moms" reading my blog.
For now, I need to brew a pot of coffee, grab my Bible and have some more quite time with Jesus.
To all of you who have read this far... thank you. Thank you for your love and support. One reason I love blogging is because of the support I get from blogging friends. Thank you....