UPDATE 4-23-08 - WORKS FOR ME WEDNESDAY
I just want to share that praying to God for direction works for me. I posted this prayer (below) several months ago and after that I took the step faith and went part time because that's what I felt the Lord wanted me to do.
It's been great - loving the part-time work and the Lord is faithful in meeting all our needs!
I thought I'd share this one on Works For Me Wednesday because others might be feeling the same way I did before. Pray and the Lord will answer :)
It's 1:11 am and I need to hear from you...clearly. Please speak to me, in whatever way you will. I need your confirmation about your plan in my life. I need clear direction. I need clear guidance. I need to know without a shadow of a doubt that what I think you'd want me to do is what you really want me to do.
Oh God, I need your confirmation. Please don't ask me to step out in faith, because that is not good enough for my husband. I need a concrete plan, a plan and a confirmation that if I do what I think you'd want me to do that you will bless it, and that we will not be in trouble financially, and it will not cause a rift in our marriage.
Oh God, I am tired; I am scared; I am anxious.
Do you want me to continue blogging? Or must I stop? Are you really calling me to start that Learning Center or not? Is it your will for me to lessen my hours at my work right now so I can concentrate on starting up this Learning Center or is that foolishness? Can I really start up a learning center... or is this a plan that's doom to fail due to lack of funding, or lack of management skills on my part. Am I just going nuts? Am I just being so petty and whiny about working outside my home? You have already given me a wonderful employer - should I just be happy with that and not even think about asking to work part-time instead of full time?
Lord, you know my heart - you know my desire to spend more time with my kids, to be actively involve in their lives right now that I may be able to prepare them to be responsible God-fearing adults. Lord, you know what my husband think and feel about this. Is it too much to ask for you to speak clearly to both of us so we can be united in our decision?
God, I need clear direction. And I need it now. Should I stop blogging? Should I talk to my boss about going part time? Please... oh please... I need to hear your voice.