(If you're interested, part 1 of this post can be found here)
One of the questions Chilihead had on her Blogging Carnival is "Did you intend to be a blog w/a following? If so, how did you go about it?" 99.9% of the participants answered NO. "No" was what my answer was too. Then I read Deedee's blogging story (It Coulda Been Worse) answer and she's absolutely candid and honest about saying yes. here's what she said: "Absolutely. I always write for an audience. Even if it would only be read by my children some day. As soon as I published my first post, I sent out a mass e-mail to all of my friends and family begging them to please read my blog and leave a comment. And some of them did. Leave a comment that is. I don’t really know how many actually read it. They are all still speaking to me, so I’m assuming either they don’t read it, or they aren’t offended."
Although I am honest about not intending to have a blog with a following, I must say that now I actually enjoy knowing that some blog readers read my blog regularly. And although I wouldn't call them (you) my following, they (you) certainly make me happy when they (you) come and visit.
When I first discovered blogging, I didn't know anything about sitemeter. When I discovered sitemeter, I became obsessed with it - I mean obsessed checking who visited my blog, how many, where they came from, what post did they like, how long they stayed... Golly - it's insane.
And just when my obession for checking my sitemeter subsided, I discovered blogtopsite and got hooked on that too.
And now comes the question, why do I want my blog go up the ranking on blogtopsite? why do I enjoy peeking at my sitemeter and seeing my readers grow? I know that the more popular the blog, the more exposed my thoughts would be to the world. Therefore now I should seriously be thinking about "internet safety" and all that stuff. Then why not just be satisfied with a few familiar readers instead of opening myself up to the world?
I can think of one reason why I like to blog and I am pleased to know that others read my blog. It's because "in-person" I am not a conversant. I am not good at carrying a conversation. It stems out from my insecurity..my thinking that I might be boring the other person with what I am saying.... I also don't have the patience to listen to a lot of "cocktail conversation" ...talks about showbiz and politics...I can only handle for a short period of time, then I tune out....
In blogging, however, I can post what I want to say without obliging the other person to listen. If a person does not like what I am saying, they can click and move on. The same thing when I read blog...if I don't like what the blogger is saying, I can click out and move on to another blog. this could be good and bad. I am wondering if I am sabotaging my "interpersonal skills" by blogging...
Going back to Deedee's answer...I admire her for even e-mailing her family and friends "begging" them to read her blog and leave comments. You see, for me I was shy to do that. I am shy to tell people to read my blog, let alone leave comments.
And talking about internet safety leads me to another question Chilihead has that I want to answer again. The question is "What do you know now that you wish you’d known when you started?" I know now that it's better to use a pseudoname than my real name. Good thing i did not use my lastname on any of my post. But I would have used even a different first name had I know now what I didn't know then.
I should end this post for now but I think there will be a part 3....