Monday, February 25, 2008

Dear God

UPDATE 4-23-08 - WORKS FOR ME WEDNESDAY

I just want to share that praying to God for direction works for me. I posted this prayer (below) several months ago and after that I took the step faith and went part time because that's what I felt the Lord wanted me to do.

It's been great - loving the part-time work and the Lord is faithful in meeting all our needs!


I thought I'd share this one on Works For Me Wednesday because others might be feeling the same way I did before. Pray and the Lord will answer :)


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It's 1:11 am and I need to hear from you...clearly. Please speak to me, in whatever way you will. I need your confirmation about your plan in my life. I need clear direction. I need clear guidance. I need to know without a shadow of a doubt that what I think you'd want me to do is what you really want me to do.


Oh God, I need your confirmation. Please don't ask me to step out in faith, because that is not good enough for my husband. I need a concrete plan, a plan and a confirmation that if I do what I think you'd want me to do that you will bless it, and that we will not be in trouble financially, and it will not cause a rift in our marriage.

Oh God, I am tired; I am scared; I am anxious.

Do you want me to continue blogging? Or must I stop? Are you really calling me to start that Learning Center or not? Is it your will for me to lessen my hours at my work right now so I can concentrate on starting up this Learning Center or is that foolishness? Can I really start up a learning center... or is this a plan that's doom to fail due to lack of funding, or lack of management skills on my part. Am I just going nuts? Am I just being so petty and whiny about working outside my home? You have already given me a wonderful employer - should I just be happy with that and not even think about asking to work part-time instead of full time?

Lord, you know my heart - you know my desire to spend more time with my kids, to be actively involve in their lives right now that I may be able to prepare them to be responsible God-fearing adults. Lord, you know what my husband think and feel about this. Is it too much to ask for you to speak clearly to both of us so we can be united in our decision?


God, I need clear direction. And I need it now. Should I stop blogging? Should I talk to my boss about going part time? Please... oh please... I need to hear your voice.

Liza

9 comments:

Thia said...

I'd hate to see you stop blogging, but I am praying that God answers your prayer clearly.

Anonymous said...

These are hard decisions. Don't do anything hastily. Don't do anything that will negatively impact your family. Remember everything doesn't have to be done today. I had one area that my husband and I greatly differed on. My prayer was that God would change him OR change me. It ended up that He changed me. I have plans to help other kids, but now I must just help mine primarily. I will be thinking and praying for wisdom.

CharlotteD

Liza's Eyeview said...

Thanks for your support and prayers Thia. Very much appreciated.

CharlotteD, my dear Schwabbie friend, I am so glad you took the time to comment. I am so encouraged to hear from you.

I understand about "not doing things" hastily. I had been praying about this for a long time. Unfortunately I blurted my desire to my husband at a wrong timing in a wrong way because I can't seem to find the right timing and the right way. It's part of the dynamics in our relationship that I need to improve on.

And unfortunately again, he wanted us to talk about this tonight, so I need to make some concrete decisions tonight, and I am afraid that one of that is to stop blogging. Maybe not forever but I might take a long haitus. But then again, I might just give it up in place of using the time to get this Learning Center started.

Going part time to start a Non-Profit organization is trying to hit 2 birds in one stone. I know for a fact that I cannot stop working - that is a "clear" thing. But I thought, if I can pay myself for the hours I work as the director of a Non-profit organization that will help kids with dyslexia, ADHD, and other learning differences, than I will be helping my son directly while I work. i want so much to bring LMB to Maui and I thought if I can get enough grants I might be able to do it.

The thing is, other times I am 100% that this is God's will for me to do; but in times like this, I do not know and I am not sure.

Kathryn said...

Here's some great advice I received once in a similar situation, "Be still and listen."
God bless.

fearfullymade said...

Am praying for you Liza. I'm not sure God does concrete plans, not in my experience anyway...oh how I wish he would though. But He does tug on the heart strings and deep down give you the answers you need to hear. And the strength and the courage to make difficult decisions and sometimes to do things you might not want to do.

Mrs. Brownstone @ XBOX Wife said...

Hey, Liza. You're in my thoughts and prayers. It's a testament that you are seeking God's will for your life. I pray that He will clearly provide the answer you seek.

Anonymous said...

Liza, I just prayed for you right now (and with a thankful heart for all you do for OTHERS). May you hear God's directions for you in a way that leaves no doubt.

I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Todd

Cyndee@Riezzee's Place said...

Prayers and hugs. Your joy will be complete if you will follow Jesus.

Cyndee

forgetfulone said...

I pray that you got a clear message from God. Follow your heart. That's where God is.